Bleah...just got home from work. Though I enjoy my job in a sense i'm starting to wonder if getting the promotion and moving up to stand leader was a good idea or not. I'm starting to get a lot of pressure pushed onto me not to mention the stress I get from co-workers and my supervisors. It's tiring to say the least. Each day I work I go in for maybe 6-7 hours and by the time i'm done I want to just collapse and shut my eyes for days on end. Chris is enjoying working there too, he's enjoying the promotion he got as well but most of the time he ends up just as stressed out as I do. We have volunteers that work with us and some of them can be so rude, act like they know everything and then to top it all off do a crappy job at it. *sighs* I plan on returning next season too but i'm wondering if I want to go back as a stand leader or drop myself back down to a regular attendant. But in doing that I take a pretty good cut in pay and lose time...so i'm confused as to what I should do. Ah well that ends my rant for now.

Hey all been pretty absent from this place...sorry. I'm sorta back now though my time on the net is pretty limited since i'm working two jobs now trying to find my own place to live so that i'm no longer under my parents roof. Things have been good for me ever since I left my ex...though sadly enough I still wish I could change my past and get my kids back into my life...Mothers day is coming up and i'm sure not going to celebrate it. I don't want anyone wishing me a happy mothers day or giving me a card. In my eyes, my mind and my heart i'm not a mother...I screwed that chance up...so yeah...please just don't mention anything to me on that holiday. Only mothers who deserve it should get anything said to them. So on that note Gena please let mom know I say happy mothers day to her alright? I'll try to keep posting in here so that everyone knows what's going on with me. Oh yeah I got a promotion at work. I moved up to stand leader and I'll be getting paid over 12 an hour and getting more hours now. hopefully with that under my belt once I get my own place to live i'll be able to get a computer or something of my own instead of having to use my friends computer all the time. Take care everyone alright?

Love ya guys.
Crys

You entered: Crystal

There are 7 letters in your name.
Those 7 letters total to 26
There are 1 vowels and 6 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:
Scottish Male Diminutive of Christopher.
Latin Female Variant of Christiana. Follower of Christ.
Greek Female Feminine form of Christopher: From the Greek word meaning 'carrier of Christ', Famous bearer: St Christopher, patron Saint of travellers, is believed to have carried the Christ-child across a river.
English Female A jewel name from the English word crystal, referring to crystal glass, based on the Greek 'krustallos' meaning ice. Also a variant of Christiana, meaning Follower of Christ.

Your number is: 8

The characteristics of #8 are: Practical endeavors, status oriented, power-seeking, high-material goals.

The expression or destiny for #8:
Your Expression is represented by the number 8. The 8 Expression is well-equipped in a managerial sense. You have outstanding organizational and administrative capabilities. You have the potential for considerable achievement in business or other powerful positions. You can expect to receive the financial and material rewards. You have the skill and abilities to establish or operate a business with great efficiency. You have good judgment when it comes to money and commercial matters, and you understand how to build and accumulate material wealth. Much of your success (or lack of it) may come due to your ability (or inability) to judge character. With the number 8 Expression, you exercise sound judgment in most of your affairs; you are realistic and practical in your approach to business matters.

The positive 8 Expression produces individuals that are very ambitious and goal-oriented. If the 8 energy is not in excess in your makeup, you will no doubt express these traits to some extent. No one has any more energy that a person with the 8 Expression who has a plan laid and is starting to work. No one has any more self-confidence, either. If you are expressing the positive qualities of 8, you are an outstanding manager because you can plan, initiate, and complete projects; you are very dependable and determined.

As it always happens, there can be too much of a good thing. If you have too much of the 8 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes. A negative 8 can be very rigid and stubborn. Ambition sometimes has a way of becoming over-ambition, and you may express an unreasonable impatience with the lack of progress. If your negative side is showing, you may be too exacting, both of yourself and of others. Sometimes this can even becomes a case of intolerance.

The number 8 is very materialistic and also very desirous of status and power. Neither of these drives are inherently negative unless they are taken to an extreme. You must avoid the tendency to strain after money, material matters, status, or power, to the detriment of the other important factors in your life.

Your Soul Urge number is: 1

A Soul Urge number of 1 means:
Your Soul Urge is the number 1. With a Soul Urge number of 1, you want to lead and direct, to work independent of supervision, by yourself or with subordinates. You take pride in your abilities and want to be recognized for them. You may seek opportunities to display your strength and usefulness, wanting to create and originate. In your desire to manage the big picture and the main issues, you may often leave the details to others.

The positive 1 Soul Urge is Ambitious and determined, a leader seeking opportunities. There is a great deal of honesty and loyalty in this character. If you possess positive 1 Soul Urge qualities, you are very attainment oriented and driven to success. You are a loyal friend and strictly fair in your business dealings.

The negative side of the 1 Soul Urge must be avoided. A negative 1 is apt to dominate situations and people; the home, the spouse, the family and the business. Emotions aren't strong in this nature. If you possess an excess of 1 energy, you may, at times, be boastful and egotistic. You must avoid being too critical and impatient of trifles. The great need of the 1 Soul Urge is the development of friendliness, and a sincere interest in people.

Your Inner Dream number is: 7

An Inner Dream number of 7 means:
You dream of having the opportunity to read, study, and shut yourself off from worldly distractions. You can see yourself as a teacher, mystic, or ecclesiastic, spending your life in the pursuit of knowledge and learning.

Well, night before last night I was sitting at home when I got a phone call from a friend. He asked me where my old man was and my response was Rehab...then he asked if I'd heard the rumors. Rumors were going around that the asshole had been kicked out of rehab. I said it wasn't true because a week before my worker had told me that he was doing good...well right after the phone call I have a knock on my door and it's his friend asking where he is. I respond the same way and she tells me that no, he got kicked out of rehab...I guess he had called her house looking for a ride home. I got so pissed I saw red...and then of course i'm on the phone with one of my friends and I get another knock on the door. I answer it and it's my downstairs neighbor. He tells me he had been driving around and had picked up something that belonged to me. Asshole steps around the corner and I shut the door in his face, saying no. He comes in behind me and starts demanding to know what's been going on since he was gone. Uh nothing? He starts yelling at me, asking what the hell has been going on in his house. This was where I got even more pissed off. His house?? WTF! Then he puts the blame for him getting kicked out of rehab on me. Saying that he wrote me and I never wrote back, that he'd tried calling and couldn't get through. Well let's see, the mail box is locked to where I can't get in it to get anything out because I don't have the key that belongs to it. And as for the phone? I'm not going to tell my roommate who helps pay for everything that he can't be on line when he wants, nor am I not going to go on line when I want to. I mean seriously I pay the bill i'll do what I like. In the end he tells me that he was too worried about things at home that he couldn't keep his mind on the crap at rehab. Why doesn't he get it yet? He's not going to be in my life anymore yet he seems to think he will be. It's irritating as hell to have to deal with this crap so close to the end of the case. I already know the judge won't give him a second chance and neither will I. He needs to pack his clothes and find someplace else to live. I will not just sit here and pretend that everything is fine anymore. It's not and hasn't been for a while. But it's getting close to time for me to go to work so i'll close this and prolly update later on with what else is going on.

Well Christmas if a few days away and i'm rarely getting on line anymore because of all the stuff I have to get done around the house. Can we say spring cleaning during the winter? I guess i'm getting a head start on everything. Work has been blah, like always but tonight is the Christmas Party and one of my co-workers is making me go with her during our lunch break. It should be interesting and boring. But thankfully i'll only be there for an hour compared to the others that signed up to be there the entire time. Last year the Christmas Party was held in the store because where they wanted to hold it was at a Brewery. Even though there was going to be no alcolhol home office quickly put an end to that. So at least this year the party is being held elsewhere. Yesterday I went out and got presents for the kids, not much but it's something right? Money with me is tight, so everyone will be getting a christmas card, if I have their addy. Thank you child support. But at least my roomie has been helping a lot. He's done more then asshole ever has for me. Too bad he's taken and so not my type. But it's good to have him as a friend. I miss talking to all of you and hopefully once the craziness at work dies down i'll be able to get on line more often and talk to everyone. But until then at least I can keep in touch with all of you here. Love all of you and take care.

Crys

Well went to court today, and so far it looks good. Two months and I should have my kids home. Yay for me! ^_^. Now the onl problem I run into is making sure my lazy husband gets his ass in gear. Oh wait...forgot. I'll be leaving his ass soon anyways, cause i'm tired of him and his ways. He told me he knows what needs to be done and then what does he do today when he gets home? Sits on the couch and falls asleep, leaves me to do it all, but that's alright, cause i'll get my kids back without him. He's not worth it to me.

But anyways, let's see, i've fallin behind on rping because of my schedule conflicting with everyone elses. Not to mention lately none of us have really been in the mood to put out a good effort to rp. Guess that's because of all the shit going around. I'm hoping that the money I sent my sis Gena arrives to her soon, cause she really needs the help. And the weather here is beginning to suck. Nothing but storms, rain and snow. It hasn't cleared up yet and I wish it would, or at least go to Texas to help them out with all the fires that are going on.

But let's see, i've already eaten dinner and now i'm just relaxing..trying to enjoy my first night off work. But that's about it. I guess i'll just close this down cause I really don't have much else to talk about. So later days.

~Crys